Monday, December 16, 2013

Poetry Zone.....

Incarnation of my Feelings


#1

Is dil mein uske liye jagah aj bhi wo hi hai,
Bhale hum sache na sahi, par pyar aj bhi wo hi hai,
Ab kehte nahi ki humne kya paya unko paane k baad, par kya kho baithe hai uska ehsaas aj bhi hai.

#2

Mohabbat karna hoto gulshan mein Gul bahut hai,
Dil lagana hoto dil ke karoobar hazaar hai,
Par kya bataiye tmhe ki pyar KARNE aur HO jane mein fark hazaar hai.

Friday, December 13, 2013

A Short Journey

A Short Journey 


13th Dec 2013
Today i walk upto the wine shop for an auto to Botanical garden alone, that was a time for analysis and self evaluation.
I thought of every moment what life showed us and will show in every aspect. Every one was busy even hurried up to get there work done, but i was too relaxed as per physical movement was concerned but inner self was fighting with my thoughts and analyzing things.
At every xing mens were in hurry to get back to there home & to be with their loved ones.
They maintained a good pace with life, i too had  a feeling living life not for me but for the one whom i loved the most.
Even, i also did it, i ran to catch bus from Noida Sec 15 to Nizamuddin at early 6 o clock at times i planned my visit to Agra, This thought came to my mind at time i was crossing the first xing of Gol-Chakkar.

So no offenses to all those who were in urgency.
During the complete short journey from Sec15 to Botanical, i had lot to remember and lot to cherish, past memories flashed in my mind. The time we spend at Sec15 after coming back from office, then the seasons first rain when we were completely wet at sector 18, walking down the lane of rushy Atta Market was felt like all Internet and Global Clock were frozen when you were with me, my life was only you and rest all other things seemed to be of least importance. But now that rush became fuss or Jam for me.

Later moving ahead for botanical Garden Metro, the time we spend and a cup of coffee we had sitting at the stair case was the best time we had, being wet and drop of water falling and having a cup of coffee at place where no body can enjoy it, but we enjoyed it, not because coffee was aw-sum but your presence was marvelous. To be frank enough the coffee at CCD was also not phenomenon but being with you was the best part.
So during 15 min of my journey i had at least an years though waving and shaking my mind.
I turned my face and walked beyond it, and i did not like to give a damn view to the place we visited to avoid the intimation of love and affection.
But the fact is i always feel and think of you, i know you might be thinking of me (14th Dec 2013, 1:34AM).
My heart is so soft that even in a wind of emotion it will break it down to the river of Tears.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

...........and ME too fell in Love-Part2

Love Scene

Welcome friends in my next blog of this month, to be frank its becoming very hard to write down my feelings on a blog as i progress.

The time I spend with her, was very memorable to me and the the feeling were very irresistible. I felt like I am in love, but don't have guts to speak to my Sweetu, even i some what knew she also loves me a lot.

The thing which held be back in expressing my feeling was my imbalance in my family, which make me disturb most of the time. I wanted to share my happiness with my Love, not my Grief, problem and sadness.
So I never expressed my feeling to her, as I never wanted to make her sad due to my sadness.

But the most unexpected thing happened to me, when She messaged me and proposed me. I was on seventh heaven. I was not able to keep my head on my shoulders, heart beat increased. I became very happy and shared the same with my room-mate Tauseef Anwar.

I could have straight forward accepted the proposal, but some were in my unconscious mind i was very much particular that my Problem at any point in time make her sad. So i had to make a very Stone-Heart decisions, i refused her proposal (however i never wanted to)

I knew if she will be attached to me she will suffer a lot, and i loved her and never wanted to see her suffering at any cost. So i opted to silently move away from her life.
A Gazal by Jagjit Singh comes true to my life(I always said her that i do not like Gazal, but i would like to tell her that i loved this Gazal and i am very much attached to it)

Pyar mujh se jo kiyaa tumne to kya paaogi
Mere haalaat ki aandhi mein bikhar jaaogi

Ranj aur dard ki basti ka main baashinda hoon
ye to bas main hoon ke is haal mein bhi zinda hoon
khwaab kyoon dekhoon wo kal jispe main sahrminda hoon
main jo sharminda hoon to aur tum bhi sharmaaogi.

Kyu mere saath koi aur pareshaan rahe
meri duniya hai jo weeraan to weeraan rahe
zindagi ka ye safar tum pe to aasaan rahe
humsafar mujhko banaaogi to pachtaaogi.


So that was very rude of me, but that was good for her................
I want to convey, i always loved you at times you felt i am stone hearted, i also have a soft core of heart, which beats only for you.


Sunday, December 1, 2013

...........and ME too fell in Love-Part1

Love Scene

Friends thanks for being with my Blogs, so here I come up with my next phase of my life.
This Blog revolve round a Girl who loved me a lot at times I didn't knew what love is and what its all about.
So here I go....

In spite of few infatuation I was busy in studying, and studied hard to achieve the expectation of my family. 
So I passed almost three years and felt Love Life is attractive and boring at times, when I see people talking to there loved ones I say "Don't you have other work to do???"
What super natural things drag them to talk so long, what they discuss for couple of hours being on call after the college hours??
I think these question were still un-answered because i was still to get a Girl, who love me from the deepest core of her Heart.

The day which i can't forget is when we(Hari Om, Vivek, Amit) coordinated Robo-Sapience and invited all Students to be part of it. So after few days for hardship we got plenty of nomination from my Juniors including girls.
Day came in when event was organised, and was ended with great success. And brought lot of Turn around in my life. 
After few days, my 6th Semester result was declared and  most shocking fact is that a Junior texed me Congrats, we exchanged a lot messages and later we moved from text to call and started spending times being on call. And those Hours and Hours passed by in few minutes. Those were the amazing time.
During these days, She was going Allahabad, her home town. She had to boared Mathura Allahabad Sup Exp from cantt late night at 9:30PM, she asked me to drop her to Agra Cantt, i was having no reason to Deny, so I picked her from hostel (just 100 meter from Mine) and went to Agra Cantt, the time Train started moving from the platform, it seemed something precious is going out of my way. I was sad but also happy that I had a chance to be with Her.

So the days went by a week later she was coming back to Agra, I was much excited and in the excitement i forgot to sleep. So at 5 AM had Bath and took auto to Agra Cantt to take pick her.
She was not aware of the fact that i will be there for her, it was also hard for me to see the same faces around, but not the one i was waiting for as train got delayed(Hate Lalu Prasad Yadav for that), eventually when she came out of her coach, struggling with her luggage and uske chehre p balon ki latt ka anaa aur uska balon ka baar baar sahi karna mere liye puri zindagi bann gya
She was also happy to find me infront of her, we had an auto, though we didn't spoke anything but many a times with uttering a single word we can talk much, same was the case with us.
We did not came from the normal route we followed as there was some political rally, so we had a right turn from Collectrate office (way to Shahganj) and then right turn from Gurudwara(Near Id Gah Railway Station) to Blood bank and later to MG Road
She was tempering with her mobile phone, and i was wraping my hand and we arrived at RLB hostel, i wanted to be with her, maximum time i could manage. The time she was crossing the lane i was standing and watching her, mai usko dekhne ka ek mauka b nahi khona chahta tha, i moved from there after a couple of minute, when she entered the hostel gate.

I was much affectionately attached with a Girl that can not spend a time without messaging or calling her.
Is this what we call Love??

Many Questions were still un answered......................

Zindagi ki Kahani

Q Zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye, Itne Hue Kareeb ki duur ho gye.
Raste the alag hamare par takdir aisi hui ki ek ho gaye.


Muddato se Dil mein Khalish Chupa k chalte rahe,
Wo b Samne i Jab hum Majboor ho gaye...Q Zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye, itne hue Kareeb ki duur ho gye.

Paa Liya wo jo Kabhi pa na sake the,
Kho rahe h jo Sang le kar chale the,
Shiddat se kari dosti ki raah mein wafa,
Pata naa chala kab hum bewafa ho gaye..Q Zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye, itne hue Kareeb ki duur ho gye.

Kabhi wada tha saath chalenge,
Kadmo k Nishan Chodte chalenge,
Kal kiya wada aj bhulte chale gaye,Itne Hue kareeb ki hum duuur ho gaye.

Zindagi jeene ka naam h, hme pata naa tha,
Isliye dosto ka hath thaam liya,
Pata chala zindagi mein dhoke hazar hai,
Jab ek ek kar sab hath chodte chale gye...Q Zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye, Itne Hue Kareeb ki duur ho gye.

Waqt ka takaza hi ajab hai,
Pane ka thana tha jinhe, unhe hum khote chale gye..
Q Zindagi ki raah mein majboor ho gaye, Itne Hue Kareeb ki duur ho gye.Raste the alag hamare par takdir aisi KYU hui ki Hum ek ho gaye?

........to mai janu.

 Poetry


Duniya bahut dekhi hogi tumne,
Maine jaisi dekhi hai, waisi dekh kr batao to mai janu.

Kisi ki yaad mein pal pal jiya hoga tumne,
Meri tarah mar-mar k jiya ho to mai janu.

Unke ruksar-e-mubarak k dedaaar mein thami hongi nazrein tumhari,
Meri tarah palke bichaye intezaar kiya ho to mai janu.

Unko apni khushio ka sajhi banaya hoga tumne,
Kabhi unka dukh apnaya ho to janu.

Unki khairiyat puchi hogi hazaro martaba tumne,
Meri tarah ek baaar bhi unki dua-e-khairiyat ki ho to mai janu.

Mehfilo mein be-shak shirkat ki hogi tumne.
Meri tarah unke bin mehfilo ko weeran paya ho to mai janu.

Unko apna aks banaya hoga tume,
Meri tarah unka aks ban paye ho to mai janu.

Zindagi mein dhoke bahut dekhe honge tumne,
Mere jaisa khaya ho to mai janu.

Hausle bahut buland honge tmhare,
Mere jaisa buland karo to mai janu.